WindupSkeleton
[14] Master
So umm.. I'm turning the kindness of strangers for this post. Don't slay me kplstnx.
I live with my BF in his appartment, I've no job, no motivation or ambitions about future, I'm in general just lazy but still want to do something meaningful I guess.. and I very much wouldn't like to move back to my moms place if i would have to move out. The thing is, AND I KNOW, that both me and him agree on that we don't get along that well now after, what is it, 5 years? It feels very much like we have separate lifes eventhough we've been living for so long together. I don't feel the same attraction anymore and I'm pretty sure he doesn't either, we haven't talked about this. All it feels like is that we're good friends living together but we don't really talk, cuddle, do-the-dirty-stuff anymore. Honestly I don't see why he even wants me in his home atm, I feel like more of a burden.
Bottom line is I'm confused and need some response .-.
Anyone have had the same situation/what would you do?
First of all, talk to him about it. You don't KNOW how somebody feels unless they tell you, and it's no good for anything wondering about 'what-ifs' and 'maybes'. Honesty is what gets you through these kinds of things, and you might be surprised. Neither of you know what the other is going through if you don't communicate.
I've literally just been through pretty much this exact same scenario. No job, mild depression, relationship broke down after nearly 6 years... It's not a nice place to be.
My recommendation then would be to see if you had any friends you could stay with. I'm quite blessed in that a lot of friends were willing to put me up for free until I got back on my feet, so while I felt pretty guilty I accepted it.
Where abouts are you from and how old are you? You might be able to claim some sort of housing benefit, so that should help if moving back home really isn't an option (though the reality is that it's a likely outcome), but in the good ol' UK they turned me down because I'm "a bloke" and said they'd give priority to my ex. Their faces when I told them he, also, was "a bloke". The issue with this is that it's a slow process, and you could easily end up on a waiting list of sorts.
If friends and benefits don't work out then I can't think of anything other than family. I know that's not ideal, to me it felt like I'd be taking a step back in life, but sometimes that can be a good thing, bit of perspective and all that.
Either way, good luck to you. At the worst it'll mean an amicable break-up, would he mind letting you stay there for a bit until you found something? Because you're gonna need to get some motivation unfortunately.