When did you realize?

When I was 4, my mom read to me the story of Louis Pasteur. Terrifying. I spent a year terrified of contracting rabies.
 
I guess I realized I could die when I was a kid, but I am constantly aware of my mortality. So if the question is are my scared of dying the answer currently is no. Just don't stab me, or eat me, or cut of my limbs off and let me bleed to death, pain is scary.

I am not attached to anything so I can go no problem is just how I might get there that makes me think.
 
It probably hit me hard in high school, I just realized that one day I was going to die and it scared me shitless for a few years. I would sometimes just sit down and start thinking about what happens when its all over and I coulnt come up with an answer. I still get freaked out when I sit down and think about it but not as much as I use too. I try to focus on enjoying the now and not thinking so much about what isn't certain.
 
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