Hot Rod Dave
"Saucy saucy minx"
Ill give a "nutshell" version of my experience in religion.
Me growing up poor & morman had its drawbacks. The mormon church is kind enough to help those in need. Our family got help, but in turn it seemed the whole church new about it. So my brother, sister & I were harshly ridiculed to the point where I gave up church all together.
So 20+ years go by, and I have lived a life that is not exactly what a "good christian" would live. I drank, cussed, smoked, did piles and piles of drugs, loose women, smuggleing guns from south america, harboring illeagal aliens from mexico....etc. yall get the idea. So kids, marriage and various other scares in life have calmed me down.
There is one moment in my life that happened 4 or 5 years ago that changed the way I look at God forever. Im not going into details. If someone wants the real story they can PM me and I might tell it to you. Its very personal and seems like something out of a Alfred Hitchcock movie, But I assure you it was real, and has no explanation that I can give.
*forgot where I was going with this.....OH YEAH*
So I like a lot of you, thought the same thing. "its a form of government" (which was my main gripe) that was outdated, how can there be suffering when there is this "god" that is supposed to be......well you get the idea. But as I grow older and more family oriented, I looked to the future of my family and those that I love. And not to mention myself as well. So my thoughts have changed slightly. I no longer divuldge into the debotchery that I used to and try to live a clean yet fun life. I think I do ok with that now. But I still lack the rest I seek inside myself. My life is a very stressfull one that I wouldnt wish on anyone. I think it stems from my uncontrollable work ethic (I have to be working all the time, or I drive my family NUTS) and the strive to give my family the love and care they deserve. I dont have my mom and dad to look to. Ive grown up on my own and that will continue. Ive always had to figure things out myself.
So now Ive seen where my mistakes in life are. Is religion the right answer for someone like me? I have no clue. But Until I get that clue. My search will continue. Rather its a foolish adventure into this thing called "religion" that might be bullshit to begin with, or whatever. But I am now on a quest to put spiritual self at ease and thus making the rest of my life easier!
I would like to thank Andur for the PM you sent me. You know what it said and I have decided to take things the way you suggest. Thank you my friend. you are always full of good advice.
HRD
Me growing up poor & morman had its drawbacks. The mormon church is kind enough to help those in need. Our family got help, but in turn it seemed the whole church new about it. So my brother, sister & I were harshly ridiculed to the point where I gave up church all together.
So 20+ years go by, and I have lived a life that is not exactly what a "good christian" would live. I drank, cussed, smoked, did piles and piles of drugs, loose women, smuggleing guns from south america, harboring illeagal aliens from mexico....etc. yall get the idea. So kids, marriage and various other scares in life have calmed me down.
There is one moment in my life that happened 4 or 5 years ago that changed the way I look at God forever. Im not going into details. If someone wants the real story they can PM me and I might tell it to you. Its very personal and seems like something out of a Alfred Hitchcock movie, But I assure you it was real, and has no explanation that I can give.
*forgot where I was going with this.....OH YEAH*
So I like a lot of you, thought the same thing. "its a form of government" (which was my main gripe) that was outdated, how can there be suffering when there is this "god" that is supposed to be......well you get the idea. But as I grow older and more family oriented, I looked to the future of my family and those that I love. And not to mention myself as well. So my thoughts have changed slightly. I no longer divuldge into the debotchery that I used to and try to live a clean yet fun life. I think I do ok with that now. But I still lack the rest I seek inside myself. My life is a very stressfull one that I wouldnt wish on anyone. I think it stems from my uncontrollable work ethic (I have to be working all the time, or I drive my family NUTS) and the strive to give my family the love and care they deserve. I dont have my mom and dad to look to. Ive grown up on my own and that will continue. Ive always had to figure things out myself.
So now Ive seen where my mistakes in life are. Is religion the right answer for someone like me? I have no clue. But Until I get that clue. My search will continue. Rather its a foolish adventure into this thing called "religion" that might be bullshit to begin with, or whatever. But I am now on a quest to put spiritual self at ease and thus making the rest of my life easier!
I would like to thank Andur for the PM you sent me. You know what it said and I have decided to take things the way you suggest. Thank you my friend. you are always full of good advice.
HRD