If you're pissed off at God, why don't you just pray and ask?
Been there, done that. Unless crickets are his answer, then no dice.
God may not like how you'll pray to him, but at least being honest with how much you hate him is as endearing as a child telling a parent " I hate you". You have to remember the fundamentals: God knows why you're angry. He knows you have questions. He is simple and he can hear you, but you haven't once told him why you think he's a joke.
I live my life based on information. I never count something out until I have reason enough to do so. I was a devout Christian way up into my 20's. I know the Bible inside and out and I know God inside and out and that is why it's a joke. Hell, if he wants to prove me wrong all he's gotta do is pop up and tell me what's up. Shouldn't be hard for him.
Truth be told, it's good to see that you're honest about why you think he is stupid my friend. If praying doesn't work, find a church that that preaches the gospel and makes you uncomfortable with it. That's when you know the holy spirit is convicting you. If my words got you like this, it's the holy spirit talking to you. Otherwise my words have no effect and they won't help you.
Honesty is a virtue all but forgotten these days, but like I said before been there, done that.
I am by no means some high and mighty dude. My testimony is this: The only thing good about me is I followed Jesus because I was tired of suicidal thoughts. Tired of watching my mother in pain. Tired of not having the life I wanted. You know what I did? I went to church that preached the gospel out of depression and frustration. From there, I was slapped back to reality to be more appreciative and work hard. I could of seeked out friends, but they got their own things going. My parents believed in God and raised me right, yet I felt neglected at times. I kid you not, this is why I was very very infatuated with 8wayrun and still am. Certain people felt bad here and some people needed to be cheered up. Nowadays I put you guys in back burner to do me and pray for you guys unconditionally when I have a chance. There'll be a time when I won't be here, but I still pray for you guys whether you like it or not. That's just who I am.
In the Seventeenth chapter of St. Luke it is written that the Kingdom of God is within man. The very Bible itself says that it comes from WITHIN man. I'm very happy that you found the strength to overcome such overpowering and damaging thoughts. It's not easy to do, I know. But man, this isn't strength that God gave you, it's strength you had all alone. Maybe the Church brought it out in you but it was YOU who did it. You are strong, the strength came from you.
When someone talked to me about God, I literally wanted to punch him for God's words trample what I think is right, yet I restrained myself because violence wasn't the answer. After listening to that person who told me about the gospel, I had a choice to accept Jesus or die in Hell.
The problem here is that people try to pigeonhole you into black and white. Heaven or hell. Jesus or death. That's absurd. There are millions and millions of people who don't even know who Jesus is. Are they going to hell simply because they never had a chance? Am I going to hell despite that I am going to leave the world a better place when I go, simply because I don't say "THANKS JEBUS"? That's just WRONG. If there's a God out there, and he truly is benevolent, that's not how he would be.
Seriously dude, you can try find all the answers through logic and knowledge. But you're not built to be a robot. You're human and you have needs just like me.
Mathematics is the language with which God wrote the universe. -Galileo Galilei
Argue it all you want, but one day if we live long enough, there will be no questions left and we won't need a God to answer them.
Love is patient, kind, and it doesn't puff and vice versa quoted from
1 Corinthians 13: 4. Shoot, if I met you I'd like you. However, I'd love your flaws tons more because everyone thinks putting up a mask of I know everything is gonna solve everything. You are courageous to say to me why you hate God. That makes me more happy than those high and mighty Christians who say I don't sin anymore. They are wrong for they are still sinners. It's not entirely your fault why you think this way my friend. The world is a cruel place, but the only refuge you can take is the blood of Jesus. Anything else has a limit.
Love is patient and kind until you don't worship someone and they send you to hell for all eternity for it.
Seek the Kingdom of God and all his righteousness and everything will be added to you - Matthew 6:33. You can do what you want, I already know that God knows what you need. He knows you're gonna curse him out because you don't understand. You don't need to put a mask to impress other people, it will only wear you out.
Oh, I know full well exactly what we're talking about. I know exactly what God is and what religion is for. I know exactly what it does.
If you read this, know it's said in a tone of "it's gentle yet firm" towards you. I'm weird like that.
I know you don't mean any harm Pocky and you're no doubt a wonderful person and genuinely believe you're trying to spread love and eternal life to those around you and I don't mean to insult you for that, but I hold ideals of those who believe in God as one who says they believe in Zeus and Hera because it's all the same shit.